Ordinarily Extraordinary » Faith, Art, Photography.....Life

Intuition

I don’t always like this way He made me. This part of me that aches when friends closest hurt. My spirit depressed.Waking at night with tears for their pain. Intuition hyper aware. My sensitive soul not always easy to embrace.

I know this feeling well enough now. Sometimes a name and others not. Having wrestled with sleep many nights only to realize the following day I should have been praying. Understanding too late the restlessness for what it was – a nudging, a whisper “your friend needs you now.” A task given me for these friends. 

So I wake. I pray. Most times unknowing why until later………………………….

Unfocused I wake midweek during dark morning hours. Forgetting to breathe. Forgetting to listen. Ears closed only looking inward. Tired. Anxious for sleep. Not even thinking of this task given me. 

Hours later a friend shares their unrest. Forgive me Lord. Why did I not stop? Why did I not listen? Wrapped in my own petty worries. Failing to sense the need, the task He placed before me months before. 

Ignoring this way He made me. 

Yet grace He pours over me.

Awakened again during sleeping hours. This time knowing the need. Learning as I grow in Him that this intuition, this way He made me, is a gift. 

Aware once again of my task.

Are you ever hyper sensitive to the needs of friends? To God asking you to pray?

  • Melissa - March 17, 2011 - 10:10 am

    I can relate to waking up in the middle of the night to pray, but not always knowing why. So I pray for my husband, my son, our friends, our church, and so on. I wonder if falling back to sleep means that I’ve prayed about the “right” thing, or just the fatigue of my body winning out. Hmmmm…
    ReplyCancel

  • Lisa - March 18, 2011 - 12:26 am

    yes, yes, oh my yes. I’m so very often hypersensitive. To the needs of my friends, to the brokenness of the world, to tragedy, to God waking me to pray. And I totally relate to not always liking that God has made me that way. Praying for you and others as we all work out what it means to walk out being made “that way.”
    Blessings.
    ReplyCancel

  • Shelly - March 20, 2011 - 10:09 pm

    Absolutely! I awake at night and just start praying, in the middle of the day I will anxious almost sick and I know I need to pray. I can walk into room and feel the pain of someone. It rocks me to the core, and physically feel their pain, sadness their longings. It is a gift I’m told, sometimes I feel as if it’s a curse. Then I beg for forgiveness to my awesome God for not being thankful for the way He chose to make me.
    ReplyCancel

  • Path of Treasure - March 21, 2011 - 10:08 am

    Found you at Ann Voskamp’s blog– Walk With Him Wednesdays. Yes, I have awakened in the middle of the night a few times– to pray. And there have been distinct occasions when I knew I was being led to pray for a specific person.
    ReplyCancel

  • amykiane - March 21, 2011 - 6:10 pm

    Its nice to know Im not alone in my middle of the night wakings. Thank you for stopping by my blog! — Amy
    ReplyCancel

  • amykiane - March 21, 2011 - 6:16 pm

    Its so nice to hear there are others who are hypersensitive like I am. Thank you for sharing that. — Amy
    ReplyCancel

  • amykiane - March 21, 2011 - 7:44 pm

    For me its always friends. Never family. Im not sure why either. And I usually know if its one of two friends. Crazy I know. Thanks for stopping by my blog! — Amy
    ReplyCancel

  • Unrest » Ordinarily Extraordinary - September 2, 2011 - 10:43 am

    […] past week’s have been a bit difficult. As I wrote about here I have a couple of very dear friends who are close to my heart. If either one of them are hurting […]ReplyCancel

  • When I Need Rest » Ordinarily Extraordinary - September 2, 2011 - 11:05 am

    […] with this last week. Two nights awakened during the night. My spirit not allowing me rest. Rather God not allowing my spirit to rest. Those times are different though. I have found He provides the rest and energy needed when that […]ReplyCancel