Giving Up “hope”

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We walked along the pathway, nervous, our expectations unsure. We asked questions and observed as we walked along this new place. As we left he was sure and somehow we all knew. God was leading this direction. The assurance I was given weeks before flowed into an unexplainable peace.

And behind sunglasses I cried.

Some times to embrace the better things God wants to give us we have to give up hope.

Giving Up “hope”

These words have been months in the writing. Even longer really. God slowly etching this truth on my heart. This truth about letting go of hope. Not letting go of the hope we have in Him, but the hope we place in situations, organizations and people. I suppose it is just another aspect of teaching me He is sufficient.

“And now, Lord, for what do I wait? My hope is in You. (Psalm 39:7 NASB)

Embracing the Hard Change

We find comfort in our normal. Changing whatever normal looks like requires time and patience. Learning to be flexible and learning to adjust is necessary.

I received a phone call last week. A phone call with exciting news confirming the direction we knew God was leading. Confirming a peace I already had about this way He is leading.

Yet it came with mixed emotions. Because to follow this path He is giving also means giving up hope on something else. It means admitting that what we’ve always expected is no longer working. It means sacrificing in some ways and reaching deep inside for will power when it feels exhausting. It means remembering I cannot find the strength within my own power. It means having faith that He will provide.

And my heart sits in the tension between letting go of the vision of this part of life we always assumed and embracing His plan.

It Doesn’t Make Sense

To embrace change, to embrace His direction, does not always make sense. Friends may look at you perplexed. Some will question. Others will gossip behind your back and still some will consider it an offense to them personally when it has nothing to do with them.

Very few will understand. It will not make sense, but can I tell you something? It doesn’t have to. What I’m learning is that usually following His direction doesn’t make sense.  And can I tell you something else? The decisions that usually do not make any sense usually turn out to be the best decisions you can ever make.

Yes, some times we have to give up hope to embrace the Hope of better things God is waiting to give us.

What “hope” have you had to let go of to embrace His Hope?

Life: Unmasked

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Mom - June 7, 2012 - 8:18 pm

I’m sitting here crying because I now see in you the things I prayed for you as a child come to fruition. So many times that I felt I knew what God was telling me was best for you and I continued to go in that direction, although others said that I was being to hard on you, or that once in a while won’t matter and you telling me everyone else gets to, or everyone else does, but even then I knew what a soft hearted daughter I had and how devasting even the small things were to were to you. I knew how how committed you are to anyone you call a friend and how easily and casually some are to hurt others and not even notice or care that they had. Now I see all of those hopes and dreams that I had for you and prayed for come true and also kept you on a path that sometimes you weren’t happy with but that eventually led you to meet some of your dearest friend, your future husband and not the least of these your wonderful son. I am so proud of you and I love you so much! My only regret is that I didn’t tell you more as a child just how much I have loved you even before I saw your face. You will always have all my love.

floyd - June 6, 2012 - 4:57 pm

Awesome post. I think our hopes in the flesh are more like wishes. True hope means confidence and I’m with you, our hope is only in HIm… All other ground is only sinking sand…

I’m praying for you and your family in the new direction, and I’m confident that what never makes sense to the world, God always teaches the ones who are obedient.

Misty - June 6, 2012 - 3:35 pm

Changes are always a wonderful time to look to the Lord and depend on Him alone. So much easier said than done. I love the “Footprints” poem for such times. I pray and rest in Him knowing, that He will carry me when I need Him to! Stoppin by from GMG :)

Paul - June 6, 2012 - 1:09 pm

“Some times to embrace the better things God wants to give us we have to give up hope.” Beautiful truth, Amy. And you are right – it’s about not trusting in the “sweetest frame,” as the hymn goes. This isn’t an easy place to find ourselves but it’s good to know we’re not walking it alone.

Lisa notes - June 6, 2012 - 12:59 pm

Um, so why am I crying now? You’ve put into words some thoughts I hadn’t been able to articulate for my own situation. I know you get it.

I’m grieving the loss of hope in one direction, but excited about the potential of gain in another. How can this be, all at the same time? It doesn’t have to make sense; we just follow His lead. Yes. Thanks, Amy.

eloranicole - June 6, 2012 - 9:30 am

“Very few will understand. It will not make sense, but can I tell you something? It doesn’t have to. What I’m learning is that usually following His direction doesn’t make sense. And can I tell you something else? The decisions that usually do not make any sense usually turn out to be the best decisions you can ever make.”

Oh Amy. You’ve echoed my heart so clearly today. I’ll be writing some of these words down in my journal today so I can remember.

Carl - June 6, 2012 - 5:48 am

I love this post, Amy, because it rings so true in every part of life. For new things to blossom, old things must give way. It is not always easy, and sometimes not even fair…but it is the way of things. Thanks so much for this reminder.

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