Finding confidence. I often tell myself I must find, no I need, more confidence.
More confidence in myself.
More confidence in my abilities.
More confidence to share how I have and am changing.
More confidence in my God.
Yes. My confidence in Him sometimes waivering.
I begin my year of Eucharisteo. To slow down, find the gifts He shares if only I will look. To practice gratitude in small things. To prepare for the difficult.
This searching, this seeking. He will show me. He will use this Eucharisteo to continue changing me. The seeking, though, sometimes difficult.
Voices bombard mind and spirit. “It should be done this way. You can’t do that. We’ve always done it this way. You shouldn’t even try. You can’t do that. You’re not good enough.”
So. Many. Voices.
Those voices named. Fear.
Fear stalking near to crush my confidence.
Taking a step of faith never easy. Moving in confidence is difficult. Especially if you’re a timid soul. Especially if you’re going against the norm or expectations.
For great is your love, reaching to the heavens;
your faithfulness reaches to the skies- Psalm 57:10
Confidence required. Confidence that He will keep me focused. Confidence that He will be faithful to lead even though I can’t see the next step.
Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see. – Hebrews 11:1
Because of his faithfulness, confidence. Confidence He will be there as I seek Eucharisteo – grace, thanksgiving, joy.