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I Was Supposed to Have Been a Princess & My Not So Servant’s Heart

Romans 7:6 — “……..and now you can really serve God; not in the old way, mechanically obeying a set of rules, but in the new way, [with all of your hearts and minds.]” TLB (emphasis mine)

I was supposed to have been a princess. Most days having a servant’s heart escapes me. It doesn’t come easily for me at all.

Especially with the mundane chores of running a household. The laundry never seems to stay caught up. The house never seems to stay clean. It all seems quite pointless at times. Why bother when it’s going to get messed up again tomorrow?

Sometimes my conversation with God goes like this:

Me: “God. You know I was supposed to have been a princess.”

God: “Oh really?”

Me: “I was supposed to have maids and servants to do all this stuff. It’s really not fair.”

God: “So you think I made a mistake making you who you are and giving the life I’ve given you?”

Me: “Wellllll……I guess not…..”

God: “Are you not my child? A princess in my kingdom?”

As a little girl I always had my basic needs met. We weren’t poor but definitely not upper middle class. I had everything I needed and some of my wants were also met. But I had to take on more adult responsibilities at a younger age than most of my peers due to my mother’s illness. I guess that’s where my dislike for housework & laundry began. It just didn’t seem fair.

Fast forward to today and honestly struggling to have a servant’s heart affects almost every aspect of life for me. It’s a heart issue. An attitude issue. If there’s a reward for doing something, a pay off, then my attitude is a bit better if it’s going to help me.

The one exception is where my closet and dearest friends come in. There’s almost nothing I won’t do for these friends. I’d walk to hell and back with them and expect nothing in return.

But would I do even the smallest thing for just any stranger off the street or even a casual acquaintance? Probably not. Not without expecting something in return.

And there’s where my problem lies. Christ calls us to have a servant’s heart. So I daily have to remember to pray. It’s hard pushing all those selfish attitudes away.

But I try. I try to remember to pray for my husband and son as I fold the laundry and do the mundane tasks of housework.

I try to remember that the poorly dressed mother screaming at her child in Walmart is loved by God just as much as I am.

I try to remember that it’s only by His grace I have the blessings He has given me.

I’m human and I fail, but little by little and day by day God is working on my heart. I just have to be willing to let Him show me how He sees them and how He would love them–by serving them.

In the end I am a child of God. An imperfect one at best, but I am a princess. I’m just a princess called to be a servant.

What about you? Are you a princess struggling to have a servant’s heart?

Some Saturday Links for You

This past week has been a very contemplative one for me. Several things really striking me as I’ve been overwhelmed by God’s grace and tried to refocus. Thought I would share these with you here.

This Conversation with God post from Billy Coffey really made me think about how God never asks us for happiness, but just our trust.

I’m reminded by An Idol Heart about The Space Between that even while God is asking us to be still and wait he is using that time, that space between, to change us.

And this song keeps reminding me that even though God sees the deepest parts of me he doesn’t see “…who I used to be.”

Beautiful Things

After reading a blog post from An Idol Heart this week and seeing it on a post from Pete Wilson this song is staying in my head. Below is a video Crosspoint Church put together using images from their flood relief work in Nashville.

The song is Beautiful Things by Gungor and is quickly becoming a favorite.

The message is so true. God can make beautiful things out of anything, if only we let Him. What beautiful things is He doing in your life right now?

Beautiful Things from Cross Point Church on Vimeo.